What Goes Around

A soon to be painting. Inspired by event in my family.

When you put out bad vibes, bad vibes come back.

XOXO
Nikki Darlin'

10/27/10

The reason
my sun rises.
The reason for my breath.
The birth of you
saved me from death.

Your smiles,
every tooth,
so spaced apart
lights up my heart.

Your little feet
and little fingers
touch my soul.
You're my baby girl,
my whole world.

10/27/10

Another fight.
Another line.
More tears.
More rhythms.
Fuel my pen,
break my heart again.

10/28/10

When I think
I can't hurt anymore
you prove me wrong.
You still hate me
you have all along.

"Wish you would just die",
those words cut deep.
It's hard to believe
that you're still my only need.

I still love you
even through the tears.
My death should be your worst fear.
I guess not.
I was wrong.
You still hate me,
you have all along.

Honorable Mention [ Soaring Wings ] repost

I won a honorable mention in a contest at Allpoetry.com with this poem.

Soaring wings
falling down
no one to catch her
as she tumbles toward the ground.

Flying high one moment
crashing into the ground the next
the chioce she made
was it really the best?

Love is sorrow
a broken wing
it hurts forever
it'll never let you stop crying.

Love can make you soar
but love won't be there
to catch you when you fall
why must love always disappear into thin air?


Her broken wings maggled
as she lays upon the ground
the love that was once with her
is now no where to be found.

Beautiful,
kind,
caring,
ans strong.
That's my soldier
marching along.
Risking his life,
night and day.
Just to make sure
his family's okay.
I'll always keep him
in my thoughts and dreams,
as he fights
to let freedom ring.
For I love my solider
with all my heart.
He'll come home to me because
not even a war could keep us apart.

Missing You

Indescribable depression,


hard to pen point.

Missing you with no end.

Days and time

start to blend.

Aching, tightening chest;

burning, swelling eyes.

Daily worries about

forever goodbyes.

In love and alone,






in bliss and pain;



something so joyful



is driving my insane.







But I understand sweetheart,



you don't feel the same.



You're confussed too,



don't worry, i feel your pain.







All alone



with a picture so sweet,



craved into my heart.



My eyes weep



when we are apart.







You don't feel the same



I know that sweetheart,



but you don't understand



this hurts so much.



It burns my heart



into two parts,



two halves that bleed.







But I understand sweetheart.

Leaking Roof

No one should dred going home.






No one should put their dreams on the shelf,





and no one should hate themself.





Then why do I?





Home is where the heart is,





what a lie!





Sometimes,





I just want to tell my life " good bye."













This home is made





of lies,





tears, and





pain.





Through the roof





leaks the rain.

The fairies are crying


do you hear them screaming

they want to be loved

their sick of bleeding.



The ravens are pulling at their wings

their voices hurt

from all the screaming.



The shadows hover

no sun light can get through

the sadness is all around

and they don't know what to do.



The fairies are crying

do you hear them screaming

they want to be loved

their sick of bleeding.



Love is all they crave

loneliness is all they got

can you hear them crying

cause loved is what their not.



The fairies are crying

do you hear them screaming

they want to be loved

their sick of bleeding.

I'm not perfect


in no way am i

cause i'm so odd

and so flawed.



I have my secrets

I have my past

behind everyone else

I put myself last.



I'm torn

and scarred

and selfish

and so full of lonelyness.



I'm so emotional

I hide how i'm feeling

with a bloody razor now

i'm bleeding.



By: Nikki Darlin' <3

Soaring wings


falling down

no one to catch her

as she tumbles toward the ground.



Flying high one moment

crashing into the ground the next

the chioce she made

was it really the best?



Love is sorrow

a broken wing

it hurts forever

it'll never let you stop crying.



Love can make you soar

but love won't be there

to catch you when you fall

why must love always disappear into thin air?



Her broken wings maggled

as she lays upon the ground

the love that was once with her

is now no where to be found.



By: Nikki Darlin' <3

Lies Behind a Happy Ending

Fake role models are made


and love always fades

false stories are told

and fairy tales and sold.



sleeping beauty

was a lie

she wasn't sleeping

she committed suicide.



into little girls ears

these lies are told

just to make a profit

innocents is sold.



plastic surgery

is just another form of suicide

take away every piece of fat

until you die.



let down your hair

put up your guard

take a bite of the apple

life is so hard.



follow the white rabbit

into the black hole

where they all took drugs

because the real world was so called dull.



fairy tales aren't true

and love songs suck

snap back to reality

and maybe with a little luck

we'll grow up okay

oh won't that be the day.

Dream world


reality blur

disconnected

fallen dreamer.





nothing seems real

not anymore

disconnected from a horrible world

for way too long been cut and torn.





rain soaks and melts the world

streetlights blur reality

nothing seems real

vision is so dreamy.





disconnected from emotion

no longer in this world

reality is a dream

nothing is as it seems.





<3 Nikki Darlin'

You drew me pictures


you write me songs

I should have known

this wouldn't last long.



Another girl

another heart to break

another fallen tear

another soul to ach



I held you in my arms

I kissed you with all the love i had

I just didn't know

this would end so sad.



Another boy

another broken heart

another wiped away tear

another relationship torn apart.



by: Nikki Darlin'

Will I ever get over you


could anything make me forget

the way i love you

and how much i care for you.





I wanna spotless mind

a clear heart

clean arms

put back together part by part.





I don't wanna love

I don't wanna know

how bad it can hurt

this is not how it's supposed to go.





by: Nikki Darlin'

Why must i love you


why must i love at all

why couldn't you just love me

oh why did i have to fall.





why did i have to fall

for you of all people

you just had to walk through my walls

even though you don't love me at all.





I'm so frustrated

and i don't know what to do

for why in the hell

did i have to fall in love with you.

Torn, ragged edges


of my paper heart

have been burned to a crisp

and ripped apart.





I've been used

thrown around

and left confused.

and for some odd reason

i love you.





by: Nikki Darlin

Throwing pebbles at your window


come look out

hear my radio.





do you hear the love song

that's plays in my heart

seeing tears in your eyes

tears me apart.





come run away with me

into the night

we'll climb to the highest point in the city

and dance in the light.





everyone will gaze at the sight

of lovers in the streets

no one can tear us apart

as long as our hearts beat.

Emotions run high


like an everyday race

fighting back tear

that wanna run down your face.





happy one moment

sad the next

yours emotions run high

but you just wanna relax.





you have a devotion

to all your emotions

you just wanna run away

but the feelings won't fade.

kiss me


hold me

tell me

everything will be OK.





take my hand

lead me to happiness

for somehow where i am

happiness has been band.





you light up my day

illuminate my world

please stay

don't leave

its you i need.





tell me everything will be OK

never leave me

hold me

kiss me.

You said you loved me


i wanted it to be true

you said you loved me

but now its all through.





I'm a mess now

because of you

you said you loved

\i see now it wasn't true.





I'll never love again

because it's never true

I'll never love again

because of you.

You're the air


in my lungs

the blood

in my veins

your hurt and pain

i swear to you

its not all in vain

things will be perfect

close to fairytale

i'll try and try

i refuse to fail.

you're my prince

you saved me

with just one kiss.

forever i'm yours

i'll do whatever it takes

i'll beg on all fours

to show you, your the one

who makes me heart soar.

you call me your queen

but im merly a peasant.

you're a king and i'm

lucky to be in your presence.

if it takes me forever

so be it

i'll prove that i love you

and i have cents before

i said " i do"

your my world

my drug

my dream

my everything.





by: Nikki Darlin'

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